i woke up at 10am today -.- how irritating!!!
but yeah, managed to catch up with all my shows, spent 5 hours on teevee this morning!
hahaha. happyyy!
oh and i watched survivor. looking at how things were going there, it kinda scares me. it seriously sucks. it shows that some people are seriously man of their words, but some, just twist and turn and make sure that the they will benefit from it. how selfish?
how far can you sacrifice for someone you love?ytd, i know such a disgusting fact. i didnt know someone can actually hate me that much just coz of certain things i do. besides, i dont think she knows the whole bloody story and just assume here and there. now, what kind of attitude is that? im trying to get away as much as i can, i didnt even disturb you at all, but certain things that you say can hurt me that bad. yeah, perhaps, im just sensitive or over-sensitive.. but i feel so maligned. there's so much to say, but all i can say now is, YOU'RE NO BETTER THAN ME. reflect pls.
oh, and surprisingly, someone actually told my best friend (whom i had known for 7 years) not to trust me when she herself never even talk to me before and only know him abt a year? -.- like wtf? what bloody right do have to say that? and a friend of hers also told my best friend that ive been circulating stories abt him to others. like excuse me, if i wanted to, i would've done it way before he knows all of you -.- like seriously, why are you both doing such stupid things? why are there alot of ppl making up stories to break my friendships with others? i know im not perfect, and i know i do suck sometimes. atittude problem & whatever you guys call it, but its unfair to me.
idk what else to do now. everything's ripping apart. i just hope all these people who are stupid, coward, idiotic and whatever can just go to hell -.-
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3:04 PM)
Saturday, February 27, 2010
YTHE PLAYBACK MEMORIES
this is so pissing me off!
yknow, sometimes i really feel so sorry for you.
you think that everyone's wrong and what you're doing is always right?
just by doing a small mistake, you made it like as if its such a big fuss.
it's disgusting, gross, sickening, turn off, absurd, nauseating, and blabla.
ur expressions, tones, and actions are detestable.
sometimes i just wish you can grow up
and stop pretending.
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12:17 AM)
Friday, February 19, 2010
YTHE PLAYBACK MEMORIES
Numb?Or is it just pure ignorance?And it hurts so much now.What is happening?ive got to stop crying for you. i just feel like a stupid sore loser now.sighs.tonight's not gonna a good night.
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11:12 PM)
Thursday, February 11, 2010
YTHE PLAYBACK MEMORIES
Guh-reat day today, i must say!
Pretty sad that it'll be the last time im playing with my dear beautiful teammates. they are really awesome bunch of peeeeople ): its just sad la, that seriously ALL GOOD THINGS MUST COME TO AN END ): but i really had fun today as it's such an awesome daaay! with being able to slowly walk to sch, a rather do-able history test, happy with test results, playing netball with lovely ppl and a box of mcwings with super nice friends! :D
after reading clara's post, im just loss for words! idk what to say. pft. theres so much to say, but i just dont know how to express coz' such experience and friends are too beautiful for any words to describe them. therefore, i just wanna thank everybody for being such awesome and nice people and i hope that all these blissful memories will stick with us forever. thank you so much and
i love you girls! :D
sighs, this awesome day kinda made me realised that
when 1 door closes, the other will be open. coz' im still feeling bitter with small little conflicts that ARE happening. i really do not know where i went wrong- it just happens and i hate such sudden change in things like this. i feel so tired of trying to change myself for the better and finding the fault and just improve on it. i dont feel appreciated at all. although i know that we should not expect anything in return, but i feel so used. it's not a pleasant feeling & i really hope all this bitterness will just slowly fade away. sighzxzx. but nevertheless, thinking of this every night will make me lonely, but exceptionally tonight, i feel so loved! its awesome, and i think im going to have a good sleep tonight with American Idol as the last page of the chapter.
i still think this post is pretty pathetic to summarize the whole beautiful and almost-perfect day, but still, its the best i can do, for now at least (:
P.S: go to
http://numeroustars.livejournal.com/ for some pictures with super lovely people! :D
LASTLY, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY EVERYONE! :D
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9:03 PM)
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
YTHE PLAYBACK MEMORIES
WHAT THE FUCK.
STUPID LA.
i feel super insulted now can.
suddenly thought of sth, and i cant believe that people look at me in such a way -.-
like seriously, wtf.
i didnt even do ANYTHING.
besides, i understand.. its just that, why such judgements when you really do not know anything, esp, the whole bloody TRUTH.
talking abt fairness?
is it even fair to me?
assholes.
define. bad. influence. pls.
im more of disappointed.
i thought 4 years were enough.
i wont pursue the matter,
but nevertheless..
i know i have the right to be hurt, and fucking insulted.
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9:48 PM)
Thursday, February 4, 2010
YTHE PLAYBACK MEMORIES
I dont want to fall into pieces, i just wanna sit and stare at you.I dont want to talk abt it,and i dont wanna a conversation,i just wanna cry in front of you.i dont wanna talk abt it,cuz' im in love with you.sighs. im feeling so down all of a sudden! ): idk what triggered me, but this hurts. i suddenly miss someone- even dreamt of him last night. what does this supposed to mean! i dont want to repeat those painful, unbearable past.. but thinking back, am i just avoiding just like what others have been telling me, or it is really the truth that i dont want to look back anymore? this sucks.
i just feel like crying all of a sudden. why??????????
i was really stunned and dumbfounded when i saw you. my heart still skipped a beat. why? idw this to happen. im trying to pull myself together, its working- but how long can this strength last? im tired of crying, but when i look back, i can't help but to still feel this wrenching heart.
i really miss you.Labels: overstrained heart
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